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2006-09-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

"how we shld treasure ppl around us before it's too late for regrets...how
unexpected things can be sometimes...and speak up instead of assuming that
ppl
can read your mind... "

Normally, whatever meaningful things people say in life doesn't really reflect the way we usually act, they only say it after all has happened. Ironic isn't it?

2006-05-13T02:20:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for making you cry, so many times. I can't help but to feel guilty, not because i made you cry but it is because you would forgive me time and again for inflicting pain on you. I'll say the things you hate to hear, i do and behave in ways that you don't like. Like someone who once mentioned to me, i treated you so hostile at times, even worse than how i treat a total stranger. That startled me for a moment, and made me remorse over it. But just what i learn from that? REVERT back to the same again. Fuck it.

Sometimes, i just don't know why i'd act the way i did.. It is just unexplainable. I'm just ridiculous and maybe i'm asking too much from you. You are perfect in everyway and just what more can i ask for? You waited for me even when i cheated on you. To think that i still have the cheek to be with you after doing such things. I stooped so fucking low.

What can i do? What can i possibly do? I regretted hurting you and I want to be with you to make you happy, see you happy, but it is bullshit, I'm in fact inflicting more pain on you.

Someone teach me how to give people happiness? Please?

2006-04-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. I'm guilty and disappointed with myself... I'm starting to doubt myself..

2006-03-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

I'm back, on my own accord rather than by popular demand.

Have nothing to do, thus, decided to drop by and post a Song of the day.

Perhaps it is to describe my feelings but it is not, the dream girl/guy in your mind doesn't cut it in reality. It is just a far fetch thought that will be fulfilled maybe let's say, 1 in a millionth. But, one shouldn't daydream that you'll be the ONE.

Baby (x11)

I'm So Glad...

I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You
Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You
More Precious Than You
Girl You Are..

Close To Me You're Like My Mother,
Close To Me You're Like My Father,
Close To Me You're Like My Sister,
Close To Me You're Like My Brother
And You Are The Only One My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing....

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That
I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug

All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I...That I Finally Found You
All My LifeI Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me
I Really Love You

You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turn My Life Around,
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile My Face Glow
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I Ever Know
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Pick Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I ..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I...That I Finally Found You.....

Sweet and smooth song here.. Kinda like it when i first listened to it over the radio.

Anyway, back to my thoughts, been through quite a bit recently. You know, no r/s is perfect or close to perfect, miscommunication happens here and there. Patient is needed, plenty. Its going to get mental from day one of a r/s. Many factors come into play, emotions, beliefs, trust, respect, lust & many many.

Reflecting on myself, i really hope i can be more respectful, more tactful, more attentive, more trusting, more caring and more loving to the one i love. Though nothing last forever, i just wanna make sure i have tried my very best when we're together. Then, I can say i have no regrets. There's this olden saying from don't-know-which old skool movie, Bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, Zi zai hu cheng jing yong you. Maybe this is what it truly means..

2005-11-15T17:24:00.000+08:00

To my Dearest Granny, you will not be forgotten.

Though we were not close since young due to the enmity between my father and your daughter, you would always treat me with hospitality whenever i went to your place. You would make iced milo for me, though i usually decline it and get myself a cup of plain water, i still appreciate it deep down in my heart. You would cook for me to eat though walking about ain't easy for you. You would give me additional allowance and force me to take it. You cared for me.

I think this would be the better ending than for you to endure the pain and misery caused by the injuries you suffered. It will ease your pain, however, the pain of losing you will be passed on to us. We grief for your departure and its because we do care for you too.

May you rest in peace Granny. Love you lots.

2005-10-10T04:56:00.000+08:00

Hello.. I'm back with some hot stuff!

I'm so stressed up over the past few days man over some family matters... finally, abt 75% of the burden is lifted off my shoulders... but still there is a long way to go... I need to shoulder more responsibility from today onwards... I will not go into detail =/

And my god, a gay added me on Msn. Sad man... Wanted female to add me yet a fucking gay came and add me =D
Well, being Xiang yi, i played along with him from the moment he messaged me.

Ohh ohh... i thought he was the cute guy in the picture. if he was, maybe ill consider to gay with him =X he's such a pretty boy!

Then he went on to ask me about my friend's brother and wanted me to introduce him to jy(my friend's bro). he is interesting man, he admitted he is gay! yay!

Then then... He was trying hard to bootlick me! He made me feel so old man!

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THEN OUT OF A SUDDEN! HE SENT ME THIS FUCKING PIC(he claimed it is a movie clip) OUT OF NOWHERE! Luckily MSN protected me from the gay boy! thanks MSN lol =X

THEN FUCK KNNCBLJPCB!!!!

He suddenly change his display picture to THE PICTURE OF ME & KHAI!
NNBCB a fucking gay saved my pic on his flithy computer! Nvm, I can tahan!

Grand Finale!

He went on to his SOLE OBJECTIVE of hooking up with me! He revealed his true identity(SO FUCKING GAY FACE & SMILE SEE ALREADY DULAN!). The animated gif. he showed does not mean "Would you mind punching someone younger than you" He ACTUALLY meant "Would you mind fingering someone younger than you". This is so fucking SICK.(Although i'm sick too). Can you imagine me dirtying my bloody fingers on his fucking asshole?(maybe some of you ppl do think that way =P) DREAM ON BROTHER! NEVER EVER!
Then i blocked him la~ I felt sad, someone needed me yet i rejected him.. I'm so bad !

NA BEI. I hope this is the last.. I want pretty girls to add me! Cheers!

2005-09-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

The long awaited post???

I have decided to post pictures of my girlfriend here. Haiz.. sooner or later u all have to find out one.. I cannot hide it longer...

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Lemme introduce you guys to my girlfriend, we have been together for only a month... Yet, we love each other like as if we have been steady for years.

My beloved Zicarius or Zickie. I don't know why i gave her this name =/

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Caught him slacking downstairs so i decided to snap his picture =X Haha.. Pai seh ah.. Not that artistic. The shades look like bikini hanging over his head like that =X Can see that i am darn bo liao right? =X

2005-06-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

Finally, I have passed my Practical 8. Its 1 mth and 28 days since i started Practical 1. The final thinggy i have to attend before getting license is the traffic police test which is on 11th of August. It is a long wait, about 5 weeks from now.. I can't get complacent at this juncture.

I have a test later today. im kind of nervous and i don't know why. and anyway, i started work yesterday! cant tell you guys more about that though! :P

I'll leave you guys with some photos ;)

8 Lessons in 13 Sessions and 1 Revision! The '2' is one which i overbook and can't cancel in time!

Pract 8!

14 demerit points!

2005-06-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

Yay! Pract 4 down! Hahah... Lemme seee... I think i should change this blog to "Progress of a Rider" . Haha.. Its 1 mth and 3 days since i started my pract! hope to finish by 2.5 mths =D

2005-05-31T22:19:00.000+08:00

Meowwwwwwwwwwww................ I'm at Pract 4! so happy! Tomorrow will be my first lesson on it! Passed Pract 3 on 25th! on the second try! Yay! Motor!

2005-05-16T12:53:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happened recently.. Went to my motorcycle practical. Completed 1 and 2. Going to Pract 3 on wednesday. Anybody wanna have a ride when i get my license can start queueing now.. Haha.. Haven alot of things to blog about but well o well, i dun have a camera phone so i cant get the pictures! No pictures no blog! Haha.. Pork man.

2005-05-02T05:09:00.000+08:00

My older car! Haha.. Nowadays i cant get to slp before 3... Guessed that my biological clock is screwed.

2005-05-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

Updated.. I ordered the wheels! Its coming! From kokapura

2005-04-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

Haha.. My car.. Wanna ride?

2005-03-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

"You Can Still Be Free" by My Beloved Savage Garden

Cool breeze and autumn leaves

Slow motion daylight

A lone pair of watchful eyes

Oversee the living

Feel the presence all around

A tortured soul

A wound unhealing

No regrets or promises

The past is gone

But you can still be free

If time will set you free

Time now to spread your wings

To take to flight

The life endeavour

Aim for the burning sun

You're trapped inside

But you can still be free

If time will set you free

But it's a long long way to go

Keep moving way up high

You see the light

It shines forever

Sail through the crimson skies

The purest light

The light that sets you free

If time will set you free

Sail through the wind and rain tonight

You're free to fly tonight

And you can still be free

If time will set you free

And going higher than the mountain tops

And go high like the wind don't stop

And go high

Free to fly tonight

2005-03-26T03:10:00.000+08:00

Fucking Hell. Nowadays, the road users are fucking atrocious. Nv stop for a handicapped pedesterian like me at the zebra crossing and the x-junction. I could have die a few times there.

Anyway, i'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XY XY XY XY XY XY XY! HAHAHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

This is the classical example of living life in denial. You have to experience it to know it yourself. Haha... Relax one corner.

2005-02-09T18:44:00.000+08:00

Well well. Life is a bitch isn't it? It is not as if that i have something against female, but well, it is commonly used and i seems to find a better phrase to describe life.

I think life is a cruel cycle. You live 70 years and yet you only enjoy 20 years and suffer 50 years before dying on the sick bay.

When you are young, your parents pamper you and give you what you needed, food & clothing. What do they get in return? If they had you when they are in their 20's/ early 30's, they would probably have a longer and more enjoyable retirement. i.e you start work at 25 and they would probably be in their late 40's or early 50's and will have about 20 years to enjoy. What if, they had you at 40? What do they gain for the 25 yrs of care and concern that they showered on you? a meagre 5 or 10 years of attention from you? What if you are too busy with your own family? What is they are on the sick bed all the while? Ultimately, they does not gain anything. They just want to fulfill their job as parents.

Worst of all, when the writer writes about such issue and yet, he is not appreciative of what his parents had done for him. Doesn't he deserve to burn in hell? Or get stoned to death? I don't know. I think we, as children, should start to show more care and concern for our parents before its too late. I may be hard to strike up a conversation with your parents as the issues on mind are probably of different frequency. But well, you need not have a lengthy chat, a simple greeting is enough to foster the bonds between you guys. But, how to start?

Hmmm... just some of my random thoughts. Pardon me for my so-so english and gramatical errors. I'm just average. =

2005-02-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

This is Team Idiots. Kool huh.

Haiz tmr is my birthday. So fast yet so sad. I'm gonna get caning or go to jail if i commit any crime! haizzzzzzzzz =(

2005-02-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna let it all go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-04T13:58:00.000+08:00

xy: u gonna be happy and keep smiling. its a matter or ur choice. no matter how bad e situation may seemed, u will go through it and go OVER it. LOOK! u juz completed the burdensome project. who say it cannot be done? :)

signing off,
happy pie.

2005-02-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I'm back! I'm in a buoyant mood now so i'm blogging! Why?, you may ask. I have just shrugged off a massive burden! Phew! Not gonna elaborate but it's school work and not sexual harassment or any sort of things along that line!

Alright alright. Time to update on the SRRR event at the Singapore River last Sunday. I was there volunteering to represent SP Sports Club, basically just to rip CCA points off SAAA. Ohh ya, I was there to record the scores and to pass them to the score keepers at the other end of the river, some 300 metres away. Luckily, we took turns to run. Haha..

There was plenty of activities going on there and the main thing was of course, the raft race. In addition to the usual raft race, there was a new catagory opened this year which was the "Walking on Waters" race. Sadly, it was won by a female, beating all male competitors by at least 30 secs. What a shame. Back to the raft race, i'm proud to announce that our teams from Design & Environment had done SP proud. They came in first place, second place and fifth place, in between them was students from the Japanese school and Ngee Ann Poly. Congratulations. Our boys triumphant, DE Killers (2nd) and DE (Dunno what i forgot,Haha). They smashed the meet record on their way to victory. The race ended at about 3pm and the participants proceeded to the prize presentation(which i skipped).

My friends and I fooled around towards the end of the event and we took some phenomenal pictures. A random shot by me, the building is slanting or my hands are slanted? =/ The elite attention grabber Azree aka zee zee or Orang Minyak (Oily Man in Malay) ala Spi...... (Sorry, I can't reveal his codename), did some wonderful stunts again. Here's a photo of his stunt and here's another, stunning isn't it? Not until you know what actually was he standing on. He was actually standing on top of the supporting lynchpin of the bridge connecting the Singapore river. He's on top of the world? Is he a superhero? How about doing a Sylvester Sim gig here? Or is he the patriotic citizen that the government wants? Anyway, he was using the wrong hand.. Haha.. So now you all know why he is the most sought after property in SP, it was rumoured that girls will go crazy over him and chasing him all around the school. That was what HE said. HAHA... I can't agree more*.

After that we proceeded to LJS at City Hall to have our tea break. The service was poor, the aircon was leaking water and lastly, the chicken was small ! Hafiz acutally said it look more like a Goreng Pisang to him. After that we went home and RELAX. It was a day well spent and 4 CCA points in the bag.

This is some on the pictures, the best i took to date, en route to LJS at City Hall. 1 2

This is my longest ever entry to date! Though its full of bullshyt, i'm nonetheless proud of myself! Anyway, Happy New Year in advance to all(all races, i'm not racist). But bear in mind, New Year Eve is a significant day. Rumoured that an idiot was born on that day, which causes an eclipse.

Damn! It's late and i have a test tomorrow! Later!

* He is so thick-skinned.

2005-01-30T18:28:00.000+08:00

A sneak preview...

Stay tuned...

2005-01-28T09:51:00.000+08:00

Alright dudes! I'm back by popular demand!

Well, to continue on the topic that i'm "POOR" or FUCKING "POOR". I have to say that i have chosen a risky path, which is to bet on soccer matches. As XY once said in his book, The Tainted Life, Life is all about taking risks. Thus, I chose the path... But frankly speaking, I'm good at betting man or should i say i'm good at giving money to SingaporePools for no apparent reasons. As my friend Confucius(Darren Yeo) or what shyt once said, 'once you bet, you will be forever stuck in a POVERTY CYCLE'. I think he is darn accurate and i shall recommend him to be a fortune teller or what. I'm trapped in a poverty cycle now with no money to buy NEW YEAR clothings! Damn it! If i could turn back time, I will grabbed the money from my father b4 quarreling with him! How about that?

Damn, next week is a grueling and torturous week. I'm getting ready in my kevlar coat to face the battle with my head held high! I'm the best person to ever grace this mortal world, don't you guys agree? My fart refreshes the polluted air, my godly aura lights up the world Earth and my armpit darkens the Earth at night. How sweet right!

Alright! Enough of this bullshyt, i'm in the middle of a lesson now. Catch up with you guys later, in a few hours? I certainly hoped so. I'mma gonna let my eyes do the work oogling at the babes(actually hunks, i'm gay.) during lunch to recharge my POWER.

Later!

2005-01-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

Wassup to dudes out there...

Damn! My life is getting miserable as the days pass by. Well, I have just finished hanging my laundry(lingerie) and thus to end my day, i BLOG. Been washing the clothes by MYSELF ever since the VOLCANO erupted a week back. Is this the independence that i sought for 17 yrs(almost 18years)? Haha(Fake laughter though)... I think doing the laundry is actually FUN! I can take the chance to add more fabric softener so i smell better?*Evil Grin* unlike someone... Yes! that's you! I can also waste Singapore's water by changing the water level to HIGH all the time to wash just 5 shirts? =X

There's not much atmosphere at home, the only sound you can hear is the incessant humming of the fan's engine. So dramatic huh.

On money terms, I'm POOR, FUCKING POOR. Pardon me for my language though but the blog is for me to vent frustration!!! My bank balance is diminishing by day and i can't find any means to bring it back to the $100 mark! If i were to increase it, i would have to do part time job which means i'll have to sacrifice my schoolwork! How can I RIGHT! I COULD! BUT, i think i sinned bad in my past life, and fucking group mates come about like J.LO changing husband. I have to do the truckload of project and shit MOSTLY by myself. Luckily, I'm mild-mannered by nature, i took it in my stride and MARCH ON TO GLORY(C Grade I think)!

Damn, why am i talking cock here so late at night when i have a fucking 8am lesson later? Er... I'll be back in a few hours though. Stay tuned and anyway, in time to come, there will be a special guest appearing on my blog. Er.. I mean writing on my blog. His/her identity remains a mystery to me but i do know one special characteristic he/she possesses. He/She makes head turns when he/she sashays down the corridor or what la. Not because of looks though, its his/her ......... To be continued.....

Time to get my ass off this not-so-comfortable seat of mine. Night dudes.

P.S My hours is days or weeks or months or even years like those of Heaven Time Zone (HTZ) +100000

2005-01-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Nothing to do at home so i decided to post SONG of The Day =/ It's been a long time. Well, i can always use the excuse that 'i'm plain lazy' or 'i'm simply busy!' Damn, i have unravel 2 gems! Precious ones too =X they are Kelly Clarkson and Lindsay Lohan(Lowen). Damn it, their album is SIMPLY wonderful !!! But, i have decided to post Kelli's song as i like her more than Lindsie(MY GOOD FRIEND HAHHA!) =/

Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson

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Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me

I used to stand so tall

I used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight

Everything, it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

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Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

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I told you everything

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright

For once in my life

Now all that's left of me

Is what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hangin' on

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Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

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Swallow me then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Seeing you it kills me now

No, I don't cry on the outside

Anymore...

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Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

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Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

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Because of You - Kelly Clarkson

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I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

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Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

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I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because you know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

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Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

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I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

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Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of youI try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

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Because of you

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My favourite 2 songs from Kelli's album but the rest are just as good!

2005-01-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

HOW COULD YOU? By Jim Willis, 2001-

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you
laugh.
You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes
and a couple
of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.

Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and
ask "How could
you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a
bellyrub. My
housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you
were terribly
busy, but we worked on that together.

I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to
your
confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not
be any
more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car
rides, stops
for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad
for dogs" you
said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come
home at the
end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your
career, and
more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently,
comforted
you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you
about bad
decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you
fell in
love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I
welcomed her into our
home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy
because you
were happy.

Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I
was
fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to
mother
them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I
spent
most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh,
how I
wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my
fur and
pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes,
investigated
my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about
them and
their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I
would've
defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their
beds and
listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited
for the
sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog,
that you
produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories
about me.
These past few years, you just answered "yes" and
changed the subject. I
had gone from being "your dog" to "just a
dog," and you resented every
expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you
and they
will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've
made the
right decision for your "family," but there was a time
when I was your only
family.

I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal
shelter. It
smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled
out the
paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for
her." They
shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the
realities facing a
middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."

You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he
screamed "No,
Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for
him, and what
lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty,
about love
and responsibility, and about respect for all life.

You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and
politely
refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline
to meet
and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said
you
probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no
attempt to
find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked
"How could
you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy
schedules
allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.
At first,
whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it
was you
that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad
dream... or I
hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might
save me.

When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for
attention of
happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far
corner and
waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of
the day, and
I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.

A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my
ears, and
told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what
was to come,
but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had
run out of
days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden
which she
bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew
your
every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran
down her
cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so
many
years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein.
As I felt
the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay
down
sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could
you?"

Perhaps because she understood my dog speak, she said "I'm
so sorry." She
hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I
went to a
better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned,
or have
to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different
from this
earthly place.

And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a
thump of my
tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her.
It was directed at
you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of
you and wait
for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you
so much loyalty.

Stole this story from my sister's blog. I find it meaningful enough to share with you guys. Sad sad story.

2005-01-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hola! I'm back. Damn, i'm feeling kind of lost now. Been through plenty of trauma but this is the worst so far. Ain't gonna elaborate on it as it is a family issue.

Meanwhile, is it your dog?

Damn, can u imagine if it is in a rage? You wouldn't want to be in the guy's shoe =/

2005-01-01T19:24:00.000+08:00

Yay! Went to The Nation's Countdown @ Sentosa! Haha... Video-ed Taufiq Batisah's 'I Dream' Music Video and 'Live' Performance. Therefore, only a few pictures! Haha.. Relax one corner dudes!

2004-12-19T03:19:00.000+08:00

Wow Wow Wow. I'm back! Haha...

Part I

I just came back from riding, rode for about 2 hour plus... During this trip, i came to realise that determination is an integral part in getting things done. Was glad i had it with me today. Tried about 20 times jumping onto the ledge and manual. In between, there was some that almost covered the whole distance but didnt!

This picture shows it all, what i was trying to explain.

There was this ledge, abt 50 cm in height, 60 cm wide and 5 metres long, as shown in the picture. (Haha)
Firstly, You have to bunnyhop up the ledge, which is the simpler part.
Secondly, you have to make sure that you have some clearance so that you can tap by back wheel onto the ledge(the front as high as ever). This is the most crucial part of the trick as any misbalance or miscued angle will cause you to the front wheel to drop or causing u to loop out(falling backwards).
Thirdly, balance the bike for the rest of the 5 metres, using ur legs and arms to sway the bike to and fro(if necessary).
Lastly, when reaching the last 50 CM of the ledge, lean forward and bunnyhop off the ledge! There you go!
A bunnyhop to manual!

After this trick, i felt so emphatic and i pumped my fist in the air! Hooray!

Part II
After that, i rode to another street with a long road divider(those black and white concrete in the middle of the road). It was deserted, so, im up to mischief yet again! This was much lower but it was longer and more challenging as u have to bunnyhop sideways to get on it! tried about 15 times to get a smooth one though i did not cover the whole ledge! But it was s-mooooooooooooooth. Haha.

PART III
Lastly, I went to Fengshan Food Centre, which is the well known 85! =X I ate Yong Tau Hu. It was not as nice as the uncle was tending the store and not the beleaguered auntie i know! My sis ex- was there too(he is working for the well known chai chee pork porridge) and we talked for abt 5 mins. I ate my food and *poof*, I was home in a whisker!

Night dudes! I'm going to bathe le! Then slp liao!

2004-12-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so moody now. Lonely, plenty of thoughts, unfulfilled expectations, broken promises, shattered dreams, destroyed virtues. Which way to go now?

2004-12-02T02:42:00.000+08:00

Pls pls pls. People, don't fucking discriminate! Taufiq was a worthy Singapore Idol winner. Don't be a fucking typical chinese who has no life to say that a huan na has won. Syl a Bon Jovi wannabe? He chose the wrong song i guess. Maybe the 85 porridge he ate the day b4 the finals spoilt his voice?

2004-11-27T01:10:00.000+08:00

I received an email from an important person complaining that i did not blog often enough. Thus, to prevent my license from being withdrawn, i'm compelled to post this entry. Hope you guys enjoy the song and relac one corner!

Nelly Feat. Christina Aguilera - Tilt ya head back ("and relac one corner"- Quoted from ShortFart)

Yeah, that's tight (uh)

Check it, drop the drum right (hmmm..yeah)

Put some horns in it..woo! (that's right)

Do it again (yeah yeah, ha oooh oooh alright, ha)

Give her what she want, give her what she want uh [repeat]

[Verse 1: Christina]

I see you lookin', uhlike what you see?

Boy, now don't be shy and look at her face in opportunity

[Nelly (Christina):]

She's right ya know (uh uh), she's right (ah)

Man, she's right ya know (uh uh), she's right (ow!)

You stand there looking at me (at me)

I stand herre looking at you girl (at you boy)

You know exactly what's on my mind (yeah yeah)

[Christina (Nelly):]It's just so easy to see (to see)

You came here looking for me (but uh uh)

But I don't do that type of thing all the time, yeah(You want me to)

Come here boyI got a little something for ya(You got a little bit, can I get a little bit? yeah yeah)

And I don't know (I don't know what it is but I just want to get to know ya, alright alright..yeah yeah)

[Chorus:]

I need to daaaaaance(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

I need ya to daaaaaance(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

[Verse 2: Nelly]Now situations, girl

They often change

Sometimes for the good Sometimes for the bad, but who's to blame?

[Christina (Nelly):]

He's right ya know (uh uh), he's right (oh babygirl)

He's right ya know (uh uh), he's right, OW!

[Nelly (Christina):]

You stand there looking at me (at me)

I stand herre looking at you girl (at you boy)

You know exactly what's on my mind (yeah yeah)

[Christina (Nelly):]

It's just so easy to see (to see)

You came here looking for me (but uh uh)

But I don't do that type of thing all the time, yeah(You want me to)

Come here boyI got a little something for ya(You got a little bit, can I get a little bit? yeah yeah)

And I don't know (I don't know what it is but I just want to get to know ya, alright alright..yeah yeah)

[Chorus:]

I need to daaaaaance(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

I need ya to daaaaaance(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)All night(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)(Everybody says)

Hustle for me, hustle (hustle)

Hustle for me, yeah

[Verse 3: Christina]

So, you got some nerve thinking you're so

I got a little bit of thatA little bit of this

A little bit of backWith a little bit of *beep*

[Nelly (Christina):]

You stand there looking at me (at me)

I stand herre looking at you girl (at you boy)

You know exactly what's on my mind (yeah yeah)

[Christina (Nelly):]

It's just so easy to see (to see)

You came here looking for me (but uh uh)

But I don't do that type of thing all the tiiiiiiiiiiiime(You want me to)

Come here boyI got a little something for ya(You got a little bit, can I get a little bit? yeah yeah)

And I don't know (I don't know what it is but I just want to get to know ya, alright alright..yeah yeah)

[Chorus:]

I need to daaaaaance(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

I need ya to daaaaaance(Tilt ya head back, take ya head back)

All night(Bring it back up slowly, that's right)

Hey! (Give her what she want, give her what she want uh) [repeat 'til end]oooohooooh, oooh yea, ha!

Oh Nelly!Nelly, Nelly, you make me so sweaty babyyeayeayeayeayeayea OH!

2004-11-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

Well, kind of bored, lonely, lifeless, jobless, goalless, pointless.

Keane - She has no time.

You think your days are uneventful
And no one ever thinks about you
She goes her own way
She goes her own way

You think your days are ordinary
And no one ever thinks about you
But we're all the same
And she can hardly breathe without you

She says she has no time for you now
She says she has no time

Think about the lonely people
And think about the day she found you
Or lie to yourself
And see it all dissolve around you

She says she has no time for you now
She says she has no time for you now
She says she has no time

Lonely people tumble downwards
My heart opens up to you
When she says she has no time for you now
She says she has no time for you now
She says she has no time

2004-11-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

Super Dog to the rescue! Haha. So lame ,but well, you know me.

Boring man, i want to workkkkkkkkkk.

Aiya, go to Song of the Day la. No link right? :P

AKON feat Styles P. - Locked Up.

[Styles P]

Locked up, they won't let me out,

And I had a long day in court **** stressed me out,

Won't gimme the bail they can't get me out,

Now I'm headed to the county,

Gotta do a bid here, im used to living luxurous,

I don't wana live here, the walls is gray the clothes is orange,

The phones is broke, the food is garbage,

A lot a niggas is livin with these circumstances,

Sp's the same i still murk ya manz'z ,

Drug money to rap money work advances,

Niggas ran and told that i shoulda murked to kansas,

Niga got popped for a murda attempt,

Knocked me on d block when i was burning the hemph,

Had a brick in the stash hope they don't take to a further extent,

Locked up and they wont let me out,

When i hit my cell block, niggas know to get me out.

[AKON]

Im steady tryna find a motive,

Why do why i go,

Freedom aint gettin no closer,

No matter how far i go,

My car is stolen, no registration,

Cops partolin, and now they done stop me,

And i get locked up,

[Chorus]

They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out no, they wont let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out no, they won't let me out

[Akon]

Headin up town to re up,

Back with a couple keys,

Corner blocks on fire,

Under covers dressed as feens,

Makin so much money,

Ride up smooth and fast,

Put away the stash,

And as i sold the last bag fucked around and got locked up

[CHORUS]

They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out no, they wont let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out no, they won't let me out

[Styles P]

Now that im locked up i rep two sets so Ima ride or die and stay d blocked up

Two tooth brushes up,

Whoever wanted with p

When i walk by nigga get up,

Cuz im locked up they cant get me out,

I smoke a stick of haze when they stress me out,

Go and hit the bar when the reds be out,

Cant wait for the day when they let me out,

[Akon]

Cuz visitation no longer comes by,

Seems like they forgot about me,

Commissary is getting empty,

My cell mates getting food without me,

Can't wait to get out and move forward with my life,

Got a family that loves me and wants me to do right

But instead I get locked up

[CHORUS]

They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out no, they wont let me out, (my nigga im locked up)

They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up)

They won't let me out no, they won't let me out (cuz im locked up)

Well well, the song lyrics is kind of shyt but well RAP, yo yo u know yo. Anyway, this songs is quite meaningful. In life, we get locked up in all kind of shyt, relationship, or other shyt. Man, i hope u guys know what i mean. =/ Get Freedom! Fight for it!

2004-11-07T10:19:00.000+08:00

Well well, nice song here. I would be ideal if u have a noise cancelling headphone as good as those at HMV - CityLink Mall. Then turn on the volume loud and enjoy =/

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

Welcome to my life

2004-11-07T10:07:00.000+08:00

Haha. Long time never update. Was plain L-a-z-y.

Let's see.

Do you think he shld win? I kind of like him though =/

2004-10-06T18:48:00.000+08:00

Well well well.. Bad day... As expected, we lost the tie. We drew 3-3 and we lost on penalties yet again... Was kind of disappointed... We squandered a 2 goal lead... Haiz... But well well, we gave them a hell of a time? They were 20? while we were 17s and 16s? Kool. We need strong mentality so as not to lapse at critical moment. Ok later. Will post the pick of the day later? I think so.

2004-10-05T23:23:00.000+08:00

Hello dudes out there, i'm back! Okay.. Nothing much to talk about today. Kind of nervous about tomorrow's big match. I have a hamstring strain right now and my knee hurts... I hope they will heal by tomorrow? fat hope?

Okay.. Today's Pick is Smash!! with Talk to Me.

Smash!! - Talk to Me

VERSE 1
Every night I hear you cry
Don't you wanna tell me why
I'm afraid the way cannot without you
Maybe I misunderstand
But when I reach and touch your hand
I can't feel you anymore
You seem a million miles away from me tonight
Baby but I'm right beside you
CHORUS

Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see
Those tears in your eyes
I'll do anything it takes to make it right
Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say good-bye

VERSE 2
Wherever so hard to say
Whatever makes you turn away
Can't be any words that I imagine
You gotta tell me what you need from me
To hold you close or set you free
Cause I just wanna see your smile again
But I can't help you if you keep me in the dark
Open up your breaking heart and

CHORUS
Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see
Those tears in your eyes
I'll do anything it takes to make it right
Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say good-bye
SOLO GUITAR
BRIDGE
I don't know how to ease the pain you're going through
Baby, tell me what to do

CHORUS
Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see
Those tears in your eyes
I'll do anything its takes you make it right
Should I hold you close or set you free to fly?
Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say good-bye...

2004-10-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

Yeee-Ha. Today, I'm in the best of mood! To start off, we qualified for the TOP 16 of the SP street soccer! Well well well, we start off bad with a 2-2 draw(we lost on penalties) before managing a 2-1 win and followed by a rampant 5-2 victory. Well the knock-out stages will be on wednesday, but i have doubt that we will make it as all the teams are strong. BUT we will try our BEST as the underdogs! Squad: Saul(GK) Me(DL) Azress(DR) M.Hafiz(SC) Sub: Osnan(DR). Pray for us please!

Ok, enough of the street soccer thing. Now back to Pick of the Day. Today, itsssssssssss NORTH with their hit single, Glory of Love.

North - Glory of Love

Tonight it's very clear

Cause we're both lying here

There's so many things I wanna say

I will always love you

I will never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget, say things I might regret

It breaks my heart to see you crying

I don't want to lose you

I could never make it alone

I am a man who would fight for your honor

I'll be the hero you're dreaming of

We'll live forever knowing together

That we did it all for the glory of love

You keep me standing tall

You help me through it all

I'm always strong when you're beside me

I have always needed you

I could never make it alone

I am a man who would fight for your honor

I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of

We'll live forever knowing together

That we did it all for the glory of love

It's like a knight in shining armor

From a long time ago

Just in time I will save the day

Take you to my castle far away

I am the man who will fight for your honor

I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of

We're gonna live forever knowing together

That we did it all for the glory of love

We live forever knowing together

That we did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love

We did it all for love...

2004-10-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

Today i'll post 2 songs as i missed my entry yesterday =/ damn tired... shitty week. can finally rest tomorrow but only after my stupid test. PICK OF THE DAY!!!!!! Enjoy!

Keane - Bedshaped

Many's the time I ran with you down

The rainy roads of your old town

Many the lives we lived in each day

And buried altogether

Don't laugh at me

Don't look away

You'll follow me back

With the sun in your eyes

And down your own

Bedshaped

And legs of stone

You'll knock my door

And up we'll go

In white light

I don't think so

But what do i know

What do i know?

I know

I know you think i'm holding you down

And I've fallen on the wayside now

And I don't understand the same things as you

But I do

Don't laugh at me
Don't look away
You'll follow me back

With the sun in your eyes
And down your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so

And up we'll go

In white light

I don't think so

But what do i know
What do i know?
I know

Keane - Somewhere only We know

I walked acrossed an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete

Chorus

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me

Is this the place we used to love?

Is the the place that i've been dreaming of

Chorus

And if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?

Break

Chorus

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Instrumental

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go Somewhere only we know?

2004-09-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

Today i am so tired... Slept at 5.30 am this morning. Kind of moody, that's why i chose this song for Pick of The Day... Enjoy..

O-Town -All Or Nothing

I know when he's been on your mind

That distant look is in your eyes

I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over

It's not the way I choose to live

And something somewhere's gotta give

As sharing in this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there

I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair

Cuz I want it all

Or nothing at all

There's nowhere left to fall

When you reach the bottom it's now or never

Is it allOr are we just friends

Is this how it ends

With a simple telephone call

You leave me here with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me

I'm sharing you with memories

I feel it in my heart but I don't show it , show it

Then there's times you look at me

As though I'm all that you could see

Those times I don't believe it's right I know it , know it

Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well

I had the rest of you now

I want the best of you it's time to show and tell

Cuz I want it all

Or nothing at all

There's nowhere left to fall

When you reach the bottom it's now or never

Is it all

Or are we just friends

Is this how it ends

With a simple telephone call

You leave me here with nothing at all

Cuz you and I

Could lose it all if you've got no more room

No more inside for me in your life

Cuz I want it all

Or Nothing at all

There's nowhere left to fall

It's now or never

Is it all

Or Nothing at all

When you reach the bottom it's now or never

Is it all

Or are we just friends

Is this how it ends

With a simple telephone call

You leave me here with nothing at all

There's nowhere left to fall

2004-09-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

Today's Pick of the Day is........... Hilary Duff with Fly! Enjoy!

Hilary Duff - Fly

Any moment everything can change

Feel the wind on your shoulder

For a minute all the world can wait

Let go of your yesterday
Can you hear it calling?

Can you feel it in your soul?

Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]

Fly

Open up the part of you that wants to hide away

You can shine

Forget about the reasons why you can deny

and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else

Find a dream you can follow

Reach for something when there's nothing left and the world's feeling hollow
Can you hear it calling?

Can you feel it in your soul?

Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]

Fly

Open up the part of you that wants to hide away

You can shine

Forget about the reasons why you can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

And when your down and feeling low, just want to run away

Trust yourself and don't give up

You know you better than anyone else

Any moment everything can change

Feel the wind on your shoulder

For a minute all the world can wait

Let go of yesterday

[CHORUS

]Fly

Open up the part of you that wants to hide away

You can shine

Forget about the reasons why you can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Fly

Forget about the reasons why you can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Any moment everything can change

2004-09-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

Well! From today, i'll start a daily post(hopefully) called Pick of The Day. It's music of cause. And... For today, Its, SwitchFoot with Dare You to Move. The OST for Shrek 2? Anyone? Go download and enjoy.

SwitchFoot - Dare You To Move.

Welcome to the planet

Welcome to existence

Everyone's here

Everybody's watching you now

Everybody waits for you now

What happens next?

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout

Welcome to resistance

The tension is here

Between who you are and who you could be

Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell

Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell

Where can you run to escape from yourself?

Where you gonna go?

Salvation is here

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself

Lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened

Today never happened before

2004-09-26T16:49:00.000+08:00

No time to blog ah... Got 5 projects on hand. Haha.. Not stress ah..

Keane - We might as well be strangers

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

2004-09-18T23:54:00.001+08:00

Sorry ah... Very busy nowadays doing nothing... So no time to update the blog. Nothing interesting to see also la unless i went for some event. If i am not busy then i see if i'll post the President Challenge carnival pictures up .Ahhhhh... Nothing much to write about. Nothing much happened. Just the routine stuffs, riding and playing soccer. Discarded some old memories while cleaning up my room... It is not as lively as before. I can only hear the typing sound clicking away late at night. Better stop here. Getting lame.

I can't go on...

2004-09-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

Crazy Son - Ronin

Hey mama,

It's all fair in love and war

Ground me, hound me

But it don't matter no more

I've made up my mind

No reasons left to find

I'm gonna be a rock star

Strap on my busted old guitar

PRE CHORUS

Mama, don't you understand

Mama, all I wanna do

Mama, don't you understand

Mama, all I wanna do is play...

CHORUS

In a rock n' roll band (X4)

Hey mama,

I don't care if it's right or wrong

There's no looking back

And I know the road is long

Call me crazy,

Call me anything you want

I'm gonna break free

And I know

That I'm not the only one

PRE CHORUS

CHORUS

BRIDGE

I can't go on

Pulling pages from a magazine

I stared life in the eye

And I'm never gonna live a lie

So you'd better understand

I'll see this through till the end

I will play....

SOLO

BRIDGECHORUS

END

2004-09-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

Well.. People said that JC life is stressful BUT i can say that Poly life is equally stressful. Why is it so? It is partially because the schedule is not as hectic as that of JC's which in turn create another problem - lack of activities. Ever since i entered poly, i have been slacking around. I have alot of time for alot of things but nothing is done. I think the bonding at Poly is less strong as we usually do not communicate with others alot. There is so many people you see everyday, in lectures, in the canteens but you will hardly ever talk to any of them. The feeling is like seeing strangers with weird dressing, weird hairdos, weird face and weird personality everywhere. @ JC at least you all have one thing in common - the uniform. Well well well, Where is the girl that i have been waiting for? Who are you? Where are you hiding? How do you look like? Why is it you? Where did you come from? Maroon i guessed.

2004-08-27T18:37:00.000+08:00

Very lazy to do things ah... No sense of urgency has made my life stressful. I only have fun on my mind - playing soccer and riding my bike. No other form of recreational activities? I think so... I think my social circle has shrunk tremendously... I don't think i am wise enough for my age, i am not ready for Polytechnic life. I'm just so behind time. How?

2004-08-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

The 1st Annual Skydiving Event organized by Samsung.

The rocking climbing wall at the event. It was the Safra Booth.

The Trampoline.

The joustling station at the AXN booth which i was helping out at.

The Team Singapore performers. They are the same group that performed for the National Day parade.

Random Photos.

A nice scenery isn't it?

A tandem jump, which is a jump that consist one professional diver guiding an amateur by jumping with him.

Osnan, Azree (The Ah Pek) & Saul. (Left To Right)

Hafiz & Darren (Left To Right)

The Ronin was by far the best band that performed at the 1st Annual Skydiving Festival with their powerful vocals and rhythmic music.

2004-08-10T20:40:00.000+08:00

Sorry ah... Some Pictures Abit Overexposed. But don't care lah... Haha..

2004-07-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

Sian Sian Sian... Nothing to do man.. Nothing to eat. Getting lazy to do hw, blog, ride,blah blah. How i wish every hour and minute of my day is occupied, doing things i like... Then, i'll nv grumble.. Haha... Test soon, i have a feeling that i will fail many of them-imminent. Hahaz. Yeah, tmr go school at 11. nice nice!

2004-07-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

Well, Nothing to do... Forget to buy ball today... I'm high on luck these few days... My Father struck 4D but $500 nia, better than nothing la. I think that i am a failure at times... Can't seems to focus on what i want to do, got distracted by things easily. Wanted to learn tail-whip so long ago but now still stuck at the landing process. Haiz... Phone spoil leh, anyone got extra phone to sell or what? I think it is almost time to sleep, there will be school tomorrow... should be a short day since the tutorials so little.

2004-07-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah Yeah... Recently, I found out that i fell in love in something else too. And... That's Chilli, i think i had chilli for every meal since last monday and the best part is that when i crap, i feel my ass on fire. Haha... I'm kind of immune to chilli now. =D

Ok, today, i smsed the girl and finally i got a reply from her. She's fierce, and has a strong character. But well, we don't know each other well though. Can see that she don't want to sms me, so never mind la. Hiya, i think i concentrate on biking better lahz. Nowadays, girls are getting crappy. =/

2004-07-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

I think i am starting to fall in love again... I get this feeling that is so hard to resist, i messaged someone who in my opinion, don't even take a second look at guys like me. But, I don't know why i have 2 opposing forces in me trying to fight the hell out of each other. Sometimes i get the feeling of 'courage', sometimes i just brush off the feeling. Well, she is not those 'elites' kind of girl but well, her eyes is so captivating and i like her red red lips(even without lipstick). She has got a funny face,those type of face that makes me want to laugh out loud. But, i think i am not in love. I think it is just that my distorted brain cells is acting up again. I think i have a fetish for girls who is sweet, soft-spoken yet 'cold' looking. I hope i can see her everyday yet i hope i won't see her everyday. I didn't even tell her my name when i messaged her, i just want to be friends you see... I'm kind of afraid that if i tell her who i am, she would stop messaging me. But well, most of the time is i message her first. Haha... die liao lah. She so basket sia, i don't want to tell her my name she don't want to reply. So knn sia. Feel like bashing her up. LOL ki siao liao. ok stop here.

2004-07-02T16:05:00.000+08:00

Nothing to do. Just drop by to type some words. See if later at night got time to blog then blog.

2004-06-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

This month is the month of jinx. Alot of crap happened to me. Shattered lcd, lost of important documents, lost plenty of money, got blamed for nothing. All of it. But, a new month is starting soon and i looked forward to it. Enjoyed the St John's camp very much. It was fun filled and the people are nice!!!!

2004-06-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

Well, well well... It has been a long time... Everything has to settle down, just like the dust in the air. It has been a long time since i sat down in front of the computer and really run through my thoughts before blogging. Materialistic. Do not underestimate this word. It makes the people greedy, making them turn to underhand means to get what they want. I am materialistic but i don't have the luxury to choose, i am bounded by what i have now. I am contented but i crave for more. I think this is the mentality of youngsters nowadays. What i truely want now, is a LIFE. I have one---gaming,riding,photography and running. I need a social circle, a companion. BUT, on second thoughts, i don't really need it. I really hope school term start fast, so i can indulge in sports,mrt riding and books. I messed up my holidays. I should be training real hard but i stopped at the first week. Thus, to compensate, I will enjoy myself for the rest of the holidays. Well, It is late. I should get going, take a bath and turn in. Good Night Brothers.

2004-06-22T12:55:00.000+08:00

Hoho... Very sian ah but i like it. Need not listen to ppl kao pei... Haha... Later gonna go riding. =D

2004-06-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

2004-06-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

Nowadays not free to blog, played whole day ride whole day. Nothing happen too. =/

2004-06-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

Jie wan - confirmed
Ivan - confirmed
Ming kun - confirmed
Darren - confirmed
Veralynn - pending
Xiao Bin - confirmed
Emmanuel - confirmed
Wen Cong - pending
Serene Huang - confirmed
Khalisah - pending
Frankie - confirmed
Seng Hee - confirmed
Eugene - pending
Abriel - confirmed
Jia Sheng - confirmed
Jerry - confirmed
Me - confirmed
Serene Pok - pending
Thiam Aik - confirmed
Wei Guang - confirmed
Food - Need Contribution Or Else We Will Starve =/
Acessories - Soccer Ball, Radio, Baygon, Ice Box, Laptop

2004-06-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

Wah lan eh... Gastric pain today. Then spend so much money. But nvm, I got myself a pic of Carrie Chong Pei Joe

2004-06-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

No Money Ah... Broke Broke Broke. Haiz... Very Bored At Home Nowadays... Its Either Go Out And Spent Money Or Stay At Home And Rot The Day Away... Went For A Movie Today, Watch Harry Potter III And The Changi Prisoner... Quite Nice La... A Twist From The Initial Story Line. From "Action Packed To Emotional". Haha... Boring. Sleep Liao La.

2004-06-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

So Long Nv Update Liaoz. Kind Of Lazy And Also There Were Not Much Events Going On. Nv Train, Nv Ride, Nv Go Out, Nv Work. Have Some Photos To Share. The Nikon Models At The PC Show 2004. I Worked For Nikon for my last 4 days at work.

2004-06-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

Ahh... very disappointed. cannot go for the tamiya competition tmr =(

2004-06-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

Disappointed And Tired.

2004-06-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

Tired.

2004-06-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

Well, It had been a long time since i last updated the BLOG. Tomorrow will be my last day at NTUC BNA. I think i will miss those aunties,merchandisers and supervisors who treated me well, we had to part some day... I got a birthday cake from them back in Feb. It was sweet as that was the second time i get to celebrate my birthday. Haiz... As for those who treated me badly, I thank them for imparting me experience on the harsh world out there. They made me wiser and stronger. I don't know what to give them, I think the best way to thank them is to visit them often. I might even be tempted to go back during the holidays or even take up a part time job there although the pay is way too low. Guessed tomorrow will be a sad and tear-filled day.

2004-05-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

I went to ride today, manual manual all the way. haha, don't talk much liao, tmr training. must be focused.

2004-05-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

Hello People, After So Long I Finally Could Get A Decent Picture Of Myself. Enjoy =D

2004-05-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

Went for a movie today... My first in many almost 2 years... Didn't catch LOTR The Return Of The King due to the 'loss' of the companion that caught the first 2 episode with me. Thus, it seems meaningless to watch anymore. Wanted to catch so many movies... Haiz... Slacked again, no training, ate junk food. Ahhh engaged in betting, hope i win la if not moody. Haha... Night.

2004-05-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

Yoyo... After half a month of training, i smashed my personal best of 19.08.31 mins but it is not due to my training, it is because of my shoe Asics Ds Trainer and the weather. The weather was cooling, no sun. The cool air i inhaled cooled my lungs, ease my pain. Therefore, I clocked a humble 18.56.73 mins... I hope i can improve on it... I want to hit below 18 mins. So, Please give me a hand everybody. Haha... Nothing much to say also. Dying inside to ride but to be healthy, i must sleep early.

2004-05-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed Riding Today. Rode a few street spots "founded" by me. Did some fun lines including transfer. Found a dirt like place to ride but it is grass =X Haha... Fun Fun Fun. Didn't dare to do a X-up transfer, did it so meekly. Haha... Wasted half of my day at home and tomorrow it is back to work. Haiz... No life.

2004-05-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

Man Utd 3 - 0 Millwall Fc. Finally something decent from Manchester United Football Club. My help is not needed anymore as my colleague managed to complete the moving today. Haha... Finally can rest well.

2004-05-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

Clocked 20.07.37 mins. Fucked up timing, been slacking for 3 days. Kind of regretted it. Gonna watch Man Utd Vs Millwall Tonight. Staked $20 on the match. Will ride after the match, my manual is getting shorter than ever. Tomorrow is my off-day but had to fork out part of it to help my colleague to move house.

2004-05-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

Had been slacking for the past two days. Didn't run, didn't ride. I lost my discipline. I indulged in junk food like Ngoh Hiang(5 Smell) and Mcdonald's. Fat and oily. Nothing much to update, I'm the same old crazy fella you know.

2004-05-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

Had a very bad day today. Didnt get a timing at the reservoir even though i ran. Forgot to bring my hp with me. Okay. An event is coming up, a chalet on the 16,17,18 of June At Costa Sands At Downtown East. It should be quite fun as all of us will get a new experience of cooking maggi using charcoal. Stay tuned ppl. Night. Cheers.

Jie wan - confirmed
Ivan - confirmed
Ming kun - confirmed
Darren - confirmed
Veralynn - pending
Xiao Bin - confirmed
Emmanual - confirmed (day 1)
Wen Cong - pending
Serene Huang - confirmed
Khalisah - pending
Stephanie - pending
Frankie - confirmed
Seng Hee - confirmed
Eugene - pending
Food - Satay, Otah, Fried Rice, Fried Noodles, Prawns, Sausages, Maggi(Supper)
Acessories - Soccer Ball, Radio, Baygon, Ice Box, Laptop

2004-05-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

19.31.18 Mins. That is what i have to say. Haha... Will Turn In Early, Tomorrow Going For Nikon Lecture.

2004-05-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

I'm Back. Feeling so fucked up cos my bike screwed up. My tire is uneven, it has a bump. I changed tire 4 times since i got that Odyssey Hazard Lite Rims set. Its not the rim's fault u see, its my brake(discarded 3mths ago). So, very hard to manual, must keep balancing. Haiz.. Too Bad no money to change tire. Can anyone fund me? This sums up my day. Nothing unusual happened today except that i help 2 china ladies do her bike. Cheers. Good Night Brothers And Sisters.

2004-05-15T20:16:00.000+08:00

Bored Bored Bored. My Brothers All Now Going Through Crisis. One Is Facing BGR Problems While The Other One Is Having Alot Of Problems In School(Due To His Popularity). Therefore, I Help Them To Destress Everyday By Running Almost Everyday. I'll Do A Fitness Update, I'm Almost Back To My Very Best. I Clocked 19.41.79 Mins For One Lap At The Reservoir. I'm Within Striking Distance Of My Personal Best, Which Is 19.08.22 Mins. Therefore, I Can Conclude I Improved Is Because Of My New Shoe, Asics DS Trainer, And Not That My Stamina Increased. So, People, You Want To Run Fast Must Buy Asics Shoes. Later, I'm Going To Ride. Anyone Wants To Join Me?

2004-05-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

"You Mean Everything To Me". This Sentence Sounds Familiar. In One's Life, One Will Have A Person In Their Heart Which Is Very Important. The Rest You Figure Out Yourself What I Am Trying To Say. Slacked Today, Didn't Work Much, Didn't Train Much, Didn't Ride. Today Is Considered Below Par, Hope Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day. Tomorrow All The "Yao Gui" And "Big Shots" Will Come To NTUC. They "Want This And Want That, Ask This And Ask That". So, I Must Be Mentally Prepared. A Sudden Lost Of Words... To Be Continued...

2004-05-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

Edited And Shifted Some Stuff On The Blog. Added A Few Pictures. Check Out The Beauties And Hunks. Today Is My Off Day, Kind Of Enjoyed It. I Am Feeling Drained, Mentally And Physically. Time Flies, I Have Been Working For Almost Half A Year Now. I'm Kind Of Tired Of Working At The Same Place But The Thought Of Leaving Those Aunties Who Took Care Of Me For So Long Hurts Me Deep Down. See How Lor... My Friend, Jie Wan, Is No Longer The Girl You All Know. She Is Now Superwomen. Don't Bully Her Or You Will Regret.

2004-05-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

I read Maro's blog and i felt that my english suck like hell. Can anyone guide me? I'm feeling very down because of this. Maybe I wanna email or write in to Aggie(The Sunday Newpaper) and ask for comments. Had a boring day. Slack during work, Made a mistake by forgetting to give the customer the base(for his stand fan). Felt guilty man. Maybe later i nv slp i post more. Today lose money again. All your fault man.

2004-05-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

Discipline,Discipline,Discipline,Discipline,Discipline. This is the thing that makes you go for in life. Coupled with determination,determination,determination,determination,determination. You will be far stronger. This is what i learn in these few months. I tried, I fail, I stood up, I give a go at it again, I succeed and I improve on it. This is what makes me so skinny. Ok. Today, went to the reservoir for training. It was almost similar to what i had when i was in track & field except for the sprints across the gutters. Mentally and physically exhausted but i felt good all over. Tmr will be a better day too. Hope Money Drop From The Sky. Cheers.

2004-05-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

Wahz... Today go enrolment. So many girls! See until drool but then not interested in any of them cos i am a gay now. Wah lan, today play bike at late night police come. I run leh LOL so pussy. =X but they blur blur suddenly no more biker =X kns tomorrow work, today off like nv off. Good night!

2004-05-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

Wahz... Today don't know why so tired. Maybe i exert myself too much or maybe i am tired mentally or maybe i am thinking of someone or maybe and maybe and maybe. My tag board pai liao. Tmr go enrolment exercise. So sian, regrets and regrets!

2004-05-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

Dunno what is wrong with my tag-board. Tmr is Mother's day, I wish all the Mothers in the world a happy Mother's day. Time to sleep liao la, dun talk cock with u all. Liverpool 0 - 0 Birmingham. Hope so la.

2004-05-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

Today I took a half day off from work, Wanted to go to the Optometrist but didn't. Instead, I went jogging. Life is kind of simple now. I have time for recreation which i hardly find in the past. I have found my true self and get to know myself better. Well, tomorrow and Sunday will be quite busy due to the overwhelming crowd that will flock my workplace as on any other weekend. That is all for now, Good Night. Cheers.

2004-05-07T02:20:00.000+08:00

Fixed the error regarding the posts not appearing. I am brushing up on my Manual these few days. Exercised alot, went jogging and worked alot. Won 2 matches out of 2 this 2 days and i hope later will win somemore(greed). Haha... I slp now, have to work tmr. Good Night. Cheers.

2004-05-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Today is a bad day. Quarrelled with my father over a small issue which in turn turns into a big issue. Now, I have to pay for my enrolment fee myself or don't study. Have to go for medical checkup tomorrow. Hopefully, my pay will be in if not no money for enrolment fee. Poor guy i am you see. Haiz... Work, Rode some street, quarrel, remorse, do reflection and update blog. Going to sleep soon, Good night. =/

2004-05-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

Well, Guessed that i'll turn in early today, hence, I decided to blog early. A recap on my day, Went to work in the morning with back to back losses in Score!(betting) making me feel kind of moody. But well, No Risk No Gain. Went home immediately after work to get change for a late evening jog at the reservoir. Managed a pretty decent timing which better my last run by a minute odd. Getting back to fitness soon, kind of excited. I know that i must be consistant and determined, so please don't distract me! Haha... Kind of mad(Me). I'll try to ride some street later and hope that i will turn in before 10.30 and that the bets that i bought turn out good(I'll treat u water if i win. Haha.) =X.

2004-05-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

Today ah... Very routine... Work, Rode Some Street, Did Countless Sweet Manuals =/. Well, i still think of the past like any ordinary days. Come to think of it, I did alot of stupid things and with my present way of thinking, i feel that what i did was foolish. Regretted it but well, If i didn't do that i will not think of that that now... Haha... I'll surf the net and chat abit before i end my day. Good Night =)

2004-04-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

Today is kind of hectic... went to play tamiya and rode some street... quite happy though...

2004-04-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

testing 123

2004-04-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

Well, Had A Long Day Today. Yet, It is fruitful as i get to eat pizza hut with my colleague and a new friend(Allen). As usual, I will have to report work tmr. Kind Of Fed Up With The Working Conditions. Having Someone Gloating Over Your Misfortune While You Were Being Reprimanded Is Pretty Unbearable But Well, Life Goes On...

2004-04-29T03:20:00.000+08:00

Argh... After 4 Long Hours, I Finally Put It Up. Borrowed People's Idea And Thanks To Them =D Got To Sleep Now. Will Be Reporting For Work In 2 Hours...

2004-04-28T02:36:00.000+08:00

Had A Hard Time Doing This Shyt... Need To Find Out How To Do It The Proper Way... Time To Sleep...

2004-04-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

Haha... Today is the first entry... Kind Of Busy... So won't say much... Get over and done with asap.